I've been doing a lot of 2D stuff lately. I feel like I'm getting to the point where each new image I complete is better than the one before. I have good memories of being at this point with my sculpture back in university. It was my first year in the education program, and I found myself drunk with the freedom of being able to make whatever the hell I wanted without worrying about bullshit critiques. Don't get me wrong, I mostly enjoyed my experience in school, but the kind of art they were expecting was quite different from the kind of art I was interested in. The world of high art looks down on fantasy art, they convince themselves that their unrefined abstract scribblings are better than other art, because they hold some cryptic, hidden meaning, usually only understandable to other producers and coinisseurs in the high art circle. I found that I could make a big titted cave woman riding a stegosaurus, not to represent a feminist's struggle or challenge modern concepts of paleontology, but just because big titted cave women riding stegosauruses are fucking cool. [link]

I flunked out of the education program and spent the last month of the semester sculpting more big titted women [link] [link] [link] and I knew I'd found my true calling. Of course, I knew I would still need a real job to pay the bills, but my passion was for fantasy art. Each sculpture I made was better than the one before it, even when the one before was pretty awesome.

Now, 5 years or so later, I've found I've reached a plateau. I'm still making improvements in my technique, but I get less and less excited about my sculpting these days. I've made a half assed attempt to sell my sculptures on etsy and I haven't sold anything. Not so much as a nibble. The few commission pieces I have done always take forever to finish and I feel guilt ridden because I'm otherwise a very punctual person. It just seems that for all the work I've put in, I have nothing to show for it but a shelf full of sculptures that nobody wants to buy, which isn't so bad, because I'm not doing it for the money, but it certainly isn't encouraging.

And it's not that I'm giving up on sculpting, I'm just focusing more on my 2D stuff at this point. I have a dream of making and maybe even publishing a graphic novel some day, and I'm just now starting to see that with some practice, I could have the skill to pull it off.